Essence
She drove to the wildlife refuge for a final assignation
before marrying a limp civil servant.
Marriage next weekend.
A lifetime of herbicides, somnolent sex,
subjugation of her inner satyr,
godless Easter Sunday casseroles in suburbia.
Fire in the burn barrel raged on the patio.
I threw rosemary in at midnight for witchcraft.
We drained a fifth of Rebel Yell while hazed in rosemary smoke.
She wore panties, bra and a sheepskin coat some kid left behind in my classroom.
I played our song, “Essence” by Lucinda Williams on guitar.
She jumped onto my lap, nearly crushing the guitar.
I kept on playing, she sang along to our favorite verse:
Baby, sweet baby, I wanna feel your breath
Even though you like to flirt with death
Baby, sweet baby, can’t get enough
Please come find me and help me get fucked up
She found a flashlight and began a strobe light striptease.
Bats appeared, dipped, dived around her.
She’d never seen bats before and was delighted.
I told her not to marry him.
I told her I could break them up.
She didn’t say not to try.
She said, “I’ve got to marry him so I can divorce him.”
She never did.
I never tried.
