The poet lived in a tree house in the woods,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
with an ocean view.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She subsisted on a literary grant and nuts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was teaching school and writing about rain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She framed her poems with steel girders,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
breathing life into them<\/p>\n\n\n\n
with language of cirrus clouds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She was seeking to fathom with her poetry,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
but they were unfathomable to me<\/p>\n\n\n\n
at a noisy open mic<\/p>\n\n\n\n
where we met on a blind date.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She didn’t seize the room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She didn’t care.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This was walking the plank into survival.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her son had died of SIDS several years ago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
No one else was around.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She buried his memory in a storage unit:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ashes, bassinet, mobiles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She had stopped paying the bill.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Notices arrived. She didn’t respond.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When she read her poems to me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I barely followed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
They were more obscure on paper.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
They costumed her life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why do poets try to dazzle<\/p>\n\n\n\n
with their slanting?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why sly around the moment<\/p>\n\n\n\n
you discovered your dead baby in a crib,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
rattler still in hand,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
and camouflage the moment in a labyrinth of fog?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She evinced no curiosity about my writing,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
never read a word.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She asked without asking.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I paid $600 to cover arrears on the storage unit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I paid another $600 for six more months.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She never defined this as a loan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One night,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
she cried in bed,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bleeding from our abortion.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She told me should could not get pregnant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I believed her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I slept on the floor holding my dying dog.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A euthanizing in the morning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The grant was running out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She wanted to move in,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
birth a child; I’d support her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Years later,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
she sent me a poem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I understood this one.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I apologized and sent her<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a $7500 lithograph<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of black rain,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
like the rain that strafed her tree house.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Call her poem a castigation<\/p>\n\n\n\n
of my character,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
relayed in right angles,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
built like a jungle gym.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If still in my possession,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I would have let it conclude this poem.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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