The first look in your green Honda Accord.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The 45 record \u201cJust Breathe,\u201d repeating on the turntable in your bedroom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The bedroom with no walls, only studs, you gripping 2 X 4’s for leverage.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The time you said to objectify you on your kitchen floor on Christmas Eve.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The confessional in my clawfoot tub as I traced words on your stomach.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The slap across the face on the porch of my Portland apartment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The showing of the tangerine-lace bra in church to piss off your deacon father.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The nonchalance of your excellent vocabulary.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The trucker hat in the Depoe Bay motel room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The tent pitched in the shadow of Mt. Rainier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The blue swimsuit on the Clackamas River while rednecks ogled.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The risque motion when you stepped out of the shower.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The curling smoke of your clove cigarettes in a cemetery.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The William Faulkner discussion with bourbon on the rocks in a Seattle bar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The illicit meeting near the merry-go-round as your son played while husband played video games at home.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The drive back from Seaside with empty wine coolers rattling in the trunk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The sprint to the ocean wearing nothing but my corduroy jacket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The sneaking upstairs as my father died downstairs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The instruction to walk behind so you could swivel your ass in faded Levi’s and someone would see (me).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The breaking of the engagement (for me) with the pastor-in-training who said your pirouetting constituted a sin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The love letters in longhand returned to sender.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The last text message from you less than the literature we always lived.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The embrace of storyless mediocrity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The lustrous dull<\/em> of it all to quote Bukowski.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The tourniquet you tied to the truth of who you really are still holds, tied 40 years ago, way too tight.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" The first look in your green Honda Accord. The 45 record \u201cJust Breathe,\u201d repeating on the turntable in your bedroom. The bedroom with no walls, only studs, you gripping 2 X 4’s for leverage. The time you said to objectify you on your kitchen floor on Christmas Eve. The confessional in my clawfoot tub as […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":10014,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,42],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10013","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-meditations","category-poetry","has-post-title","has-post-date","has-post-category","has-post-tag","has-post-comment","has-post-author",""],"builder_content":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10013","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10013"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10013\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10015,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10013\/revisions\/10015"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/10014"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10013"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10013"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.nestuccaspitpress.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10013"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}